Is the room still spinning?

Playing in the sand!

2007-05-11T11:12:00.000-07:00

I know all I blog about are my kids, but they are just too cute and fun!

Quinten is four!!!

2007-05-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures of my big boys birthday fun! we partied all month, Thursday School, a home party and our friends Holly Erin and Ryan suprised him with a trip to Chucky Cheese!

YEAH SPRING!

2007-04-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

Quinten's impersonation of Popeye!

This is Jaelyn's I'm cute face!

Here are a few cute pictures of the kids on a beautiful Spring day when we went for a walk/scooter ride.

Sick of being sick

2007-03-11T20:13:00.000-07:00

This stinks! I am tired of everyone being sick! Jaelyn looks horrible! She has a rash all over her face, chest and legs! I got one too but Benadryl worked for me, not so much for my Jae! My frustration level is a little high! I am tired of cranky people complaining because I can't find a job, I have sick klingy kids and I'm not the picture of health myself. But GOD WILL MAKE A WAY, WHERE THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY! That is the song that I scream in my head!:)

She is Two!

2007-02-19T19:19:00.000-08:00

Hard to believe that my Baby is two! Where has the time gone!

Cute Kids!

2007-01-24T15:00:00.000-08:00

Man! My kids are cute! Here is the christmas picture I should've sent in my cards, if it could've been taken in time,and a few more.

Fall Fun!!

2006-10-22T13:56:00.000-07:00

We are having lots of fun at Grammy's!

Pictures of our visit

2006-08-03T20:38:00.000-07:00

Grammy decided to get Quinten a guitar! Here he is strumming away! The picture below is from last time we were here, Quinten was afraid of monsters so he figured his baby sister would protect him ! What a big Chicken!

It has been a while..

2006-07-25T19:56:00.000-07:00

It's been some time since I have whined, complained, or done anything on my Blog! We are back in WV visiting my parents for fun, and because I feel like I losing my mind being in my house so much! We have been having a nice time over all. My Mom bought Quinten a guitar and he has been strumming all day and singing and dancing! Such a great showman! I am trying to stay peaceful and not worry too much about bills or a job, TRYING being the key word!! Isn't it funny that in your heart you know that God has a great plan and that he always rewards you ten fold after you go through a trial or two, but you still WORRY!!! Worry is one of the worst sins in my mind because it is not having full faith in God, it is not giving up full control to God. Why did God give us such spirits that make us so stubborn! And you know all of you out there in Blog land are guilty of it! We all WORRY about something!!!! Luckily we have a forgiving Father!! And then my other weakness is praying for God's will to be done, do I really want God's will to be done? Not usually, usually I want God to do my bidding! But isn't it great that God's will is done whether you like it or not? He is always right!! So, here is what I will try to do, I will pray for God's will to be done and I'm going to see what it is............................................eventually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I see no end in sight.

2006-05-28T22:47:00.000-07:00

I am very sad, I can not sleep. I lay in bed and worry. I feel like I am in a quicksand of bills and they are swallowing me whole and there is no way out! I work my butt off and it is just not enough. I am discouraged and feel like a loser. I can not get a job to pay enough to help my family live at home so I am here. It will be a year in June that I have been jobless, why will no one but Cracker Barrel give me a chance? I know there are a lot of unemployed people and that I am not alone... I' m still sad and I still feel like a big zero!! Oh well, it is my day to whine!! I also know I am blessed and that there are people with far worse problems, I am still sad.. maybe I'll stop feeling sorry for myself, go to sleep and pray that tomorrow will be a better day. Maybe my tears willldry up and my heart will stop hurting and I'll just stop caring. Luckliy I have my kids, so I have to care. Sorry, I'm venting, overly emotional me!

Spread the word...

2006-05-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

So, does anyone know of anyone looking for daycare???? Maybe I if I can line up kids or interviews or whatever I could come home sooner. I'm just tired of being away from home and feeling very discouraged about ever getting a job, outside my home anyway... Keep your ears open lovely Ladies of Tecumseh!

What I'm gonna do...

2006-05-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

Okay, after months of unemployment, living out of state, and prayer, this is what I have decided to do... I am staying here working at Cracker Barrel til the end of the month, if I do not get a job by the end of June we are coming home, I am going to start my own daycare and am going to commit to do it for four years until Jaelyn and Quinten are both in school. If God wants me home with my children who am I to fight him??? I just can not for the life of me figure out why I can not get a real full time job either here or in MI, so maybe the answer is STAY HOME!!! And I know how it feels to be desperately seeking someone good and kind to care for my children, so maybe I should be that person for someone else... God is in control, I will see what he wants!!!

My Beauty!!

2006-05-03T10:44:00.000-07:00

Need I say more? I think she might be the most beautiful girl in the world!!!!

I'm better today...

2006-04-20T19:56:00.000-07:00

Those of you who know me best know that I am a bit an exploder. That of course is not a word, but, when I get frustrated or sad I just get it all out and feel better. I'm not feeling so angry today and do thank everyone for the comments and prayers. I am very thankful for all my friends and family!! My Brother Matt always says that everyone knows how I'm feeling at any time because I'm not one to hide my thoughts or feelings! Sometimes it is a strength, sometimes a weakness. I do believe however, that it is healthy, for me at least! I throw my short fit or bawl my eyes out and feel better! God says we are supposed to be like children right? Oh well, folks love me anyway, thanks and love to you all!

Now I'm just Hacked!!!!

2006-04-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

I want to come home now!!!! I am frustrated and tired and I don't want to be positive or thankful! I want to go home. Now!

Discouraged....

2006-04-13T20:35:00.001-07:00

Lately I have to admit to feeling extremely discouraged! I know I should not, and I do know how blessed I am, and I do thank God daily for my health and my kids and their health and my Husband and his job... but I'm here and he is there.. It doesn't seem right. I wish I knew what to do, I wish that God would just tell me! I know that all things happen for a reason... I know that to doubt and even be discouraged is sin! So I guess I'm just a big Ole Sinner right now. Pray for me, Pray for Scott, pray that God helps me to know what to do... Thanks.

Discouraged....

2006-04-13T20:35:00.000-07:00

My feet hurt.. I wanna go home...

2006-04-06T21:56:00.000-07:00

You know I don't hate waitressing as much as I feared I might, but man!! Getting off a seven hour shift my feet are throbbing! I may be too old for this! I bet it may work some of my chub off tho, that would be a good thing! I do just wanna come home.. I want a job in MI, be able to go to my church send my boy to his school , have a family schedule and see my Husband everyday, even if he can be cantankerous!!!! This is a whiny posting, what can I say!! I know God has a great plan for me and I don't for one minute doubt it, I am however tired. Please be praying extra hard for us this is not easy. Love to all in MI!!!

You will never believe...

2006-03-17T19:51:00.000-08:00

I got a job today! At Cracker Barrel in WV as a Waitress, I was hired on the spot! Pray for me!!! I still would prefer a job in MI with my Hubby, but this will help for now! And I have a free Babysitter! I prayed about it before I went and never dreamed that I would be hired immediatley so this must be God's will for now... Pray for Scott too he'll be lonely!

Teaparty

2006-02-25T10:49:00.000-08:00

We had a formal tea with all of the cousins in honor of Grammy Jill being healthy and jolly again. Everyone had a lovely time!!!

Why Worry???

2006-02-16T20:50:00.000-08:00

You know, today I was feeling a little sad, I had two rejctions for jobs I was over qualified for!! I know God has a plan which I believe with all my heart, but I just don't know how all of this is going to work! I know why God said we should be like children! I look at my own children, they trust me and their Daddy with abandon, they don't worry. Also when Quinten prays he thanks God for everything! His chips his pop, his whole family whom he enjoy's naming each and everyone some several times! I just pray I too will trust in God with such abandon and will thank God for the blessings he has showered me with and the wonderful family and friends who love me and who mean everything to me.Especially, I want to be thankful for my Husband and the two little Angels God hand picked for me to humble me and bless my life. My cup overflows!

Jae Jae's Birthday Party

2006-02-13T17:08:00.000-08:00

We celebrated Jaelyn's Birthday on Sunday,she will be one on the fiftheenth of February. Hard to believe Babies grow so fast!!! Isn't she beautiful!!! Quinten And I look like Dorks!

Had an interview today

2006-02-08T21:41:00.000-08:00

I had an interview today in P-burg for a part time Teller making $7.00 an hour. More than what I'm making now which is nothing, but a serious pay cut and blow to my ego! I guess I can't have an ego. Who knows I may not get that job either... God has a plan.. Hopefully for a job in MI making $50,000.00! That's what I'll start praying for!!!! Am I delusional or what!!!

Dedicated to Matt...

2006-02-08T21:37:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated to my Brother Matt, I really look up to you as my older Brother! Yeah right! Kiss my Butt you big Biscuit Head! Of course Blogging is dorky, it is a forum for mindless banter and whining.Dah!

I am tired.....

2006-02-01T19:16:00.000-08:00

I am tired. Both kids have been sick with the uck uck! I'm tired from Quinten crawling in bed with me every night! There is something about being in your own home! Everyone sleeps better in their own bed! I wanna go home! But... my Mom still needs me here and I need a job..... I hope it doesn't snow this weekend so we can come home to Michigan for a visit. Funny to say, home, for a visit!!! Oh well I shouldn't whine, everyone's relativley healthy and happy and that is what counts! God has a plan for me and I'm waiting and trying to be still and listen as best as I can!

Long Time!

2006-01-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

It has been so long since I have posted anything! At times it just seems that the cares and troubles of this life drag me down! But... I have great news!! My Mom is coming back from the land of the dead! She is laughing and singing and playing with and loving her Grandchildren! Praise God!!! Over two years of depression and illness over! Now if I can get a job my life will be complete! Of course I am realizing the reason fo my long time off work, when my Mom needed me after two Grandmal seizures, I could help! And my Husband has helped and opened his heart to may family and more to me.. Prayers are of course still appreciated as we are seperated from Scott here in WV.

I am so boring.....

2005-10-10T13:38:00.000-07:00

Can I just say that when you are jobless and staying at home with kids that you get a little boring? At least I should say, I do! I'm constantly on diaper and laundry duty! Quinten is going pee pee and poo poo on the potty on occasion, I'm not pushing it, just introducing. I get excited about that. I know when God does bless me with the right job I will probably miss this! Let me think.... Jaelyn says Momma now, she is rocking on her hands and knees getting ready to crawl! (I keep telling her that there is no need to rush!) She smiles and gives the best hugs and wettest kisses! Quinten is two! Need I say more! He gets into everything faster than the speed of light, currently he is sitting in his sisters car seat carrier with his blankey saying rock, rock! His vocabulary is steadily improving at a pace that amazes me. His sense of humor is great, he puts on hats and our shoes and does crazy dances and makes silly faces. He has learned that if you push things over the the higher cupboards that you can stand on them and get things you aren't supposed to out of them! This is my life right now usually amusing, although it can border on dull...but thank God for my Babies they do keep it busy!

God's Blessings

2005-09-25T11:26:00.000-07:00

You know, just when I start to worry about something like..... BILLS!!!! God sends something or someone to take care of things for me. Not that the way he takes care of things for me is the most comfortable way for my ego, but he does take care of them. For that I am thankful! God knows when we need to be humbled and humility has never been one of my strong points! Humble yourselfs in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up!

Nobody knows!

2005-09-16T22:36:00.000-07:00

My son completely broke my cell phone, I found out that I will not be called for a second interview at Standard Federal, or La Salle Bank or whatever they are until after the first week of October! Frustration is wreaking in my soul! I am so trying to be positive. But it all happens for a reason! Here is a cute story, I was reading a book to Quinten, there was a page that had a bunch of childen of different races, there was a black boy sitting next to a blonde white girl, Quinten's eyes got big and he pointed to the boy and said Daddy, and the girl and said Momma! If only we all could see people of different races as a part of our family instead of color and creed or whatever people see!

A reason for everything!

2005-09-15T09:15:00.000-07:00

Isn't it amazing the way God works? The Bad things that happen to us in our lives always happen for a reason! And usually it is for our betterment! I am still jobless but God has taken great care of me and my family so far! I have learned through this time of loss that I really do enjoy being employed and that staying home full time is truly the hardest job you can have! Children are God's greatest blessing, but two year olds are the Devil! You fall in love with your opposite only to find that you can't stand people the opposite of you! And here's what is great you married them! So what now? Prayer, prayer and much insanity! Is the room still spinning? I am the Dizzy Blonde!